All About Mothers

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As Mother's day is approaching I thought I would do a post about my Mother, then it got me thinking that I will include Bethany in this post seeing as she is a Mother and I want to just say thank you to my Mother and also to Beth for being a brilliant Mother. We should celebrate all the Mother's we know and just say well done and thank you to them all. 

My Mother - 

Not only is she my Mother but also had to be a Father to me and my Brother as my Dad left us all when we was quite young so she has always had to be strong. Myself, Brother and our Mother have the most incredible bond because we just had each other growing up and that is the reason we are close. Together we laugh, smile and never have a dull moment. My Mother hasn't had the easiest of lives but she never lets that show, she will put a smile on anyone's face. Not only is she a brilliant Mother but she is now the best nanny to Ava and Bella. I honestly cannot wait to have my own child because I know they will have the perfect nanny. My Mother is my best friend, soul mate and my therapist as she listens 24/7. She has held my hand through out all of my hospital appointments and even now I am a adult she is still just as supportive and caring. We face time, text, whatapps and ring even when we are in the next room, we argue over the most stupidest of stuff yet we make up in a second, we have our little evenings of sitting in my bedroom watching TV and eating chocolate. I forever am grateful and thankful to have my Mother in my life. Even though she can't make scrambled egg, puts too much butter on my toast, is so unorganized and nicks my nail files but I wouldn't change her for the world. 

Bethany - 

I have so much respect for Bethany and so proud of her as a young Mother. I don't think people praise her enough to be honest. Knowing Bethany has been through so much in life and also had problems during her pregnancy with Bella, yet she carried on and never let it get to her. Ava and Bella are an absolute credit to Beth as they are both the most beautiful girls ever. When she lived here, she never expected me to help or look after Ava, she was so thankful when I did. I hate it that I'm not close to help when she needs it or just wants a rest ect. I used to make her and Tommy go on a date night once a week if they could if not once a month because I think its important for them to still be a couple and spend quality time together so I can't wait for them to move back down this area so I can look after the girls for when they want a date night or even to pop over if she wants a bath or relax she knows I will always be there for her. Bethany we are all here for you and are very proud of you. You are one amazing Mother. 

First our mothers, forever our friends

Happy Mothers Day to all the beautiful and amazing Mothers out there. You are all loved and appreciated very much :)

Love Katie x

Goodbye February Hello March

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It's very scary that is is nearly March soon!! I feel like the more older I am getting the quicker the years go by. I don't know if I am looking forward to March or not but I defo know Im glad to see the back on February. Last week I got some news regarding my health that its another big shock and will change everything, I got diagnosed with Colitis which is inflammation of the inner lining of the colon which is the reason to all of my trouble I have been having for a long time. My surgeon has put me on Medication which I haven't started yet and is also seeing me in 4 weeks to discuss my treatment plan in more detail. When he told me I wasn't taking it all in to be honest as I really wasn't expecting him to tell me anything so it was a big shock but really glad after many tests and two operations that I now know what is causing my pain. So I know March is going to be full of hospital appointments and treatment planning and a complete diet change. 

I do have one good thing to look forward to in March actually and that is Beth's Sister Hen do in on the 27th March so I am going down to Essex on 26th March for a few days which Im excited and also nervous about. It will be the first time in along time that Im going out with a large group of females that includes alcohol and a busy place. Last time a few years ago I had a massive panic attack in a Club which totally put me off going for along time but I have Beth with me now so that makes me feel abit better as she knows what to do and say to calm me down. Excited and nervous together is such a weird feeling because I almost feel guilty for wanting to enjoy myself but every now and then I remind myself its possible I might have a panic attack and then I feel so weird and blahh!! I have yet to find an outfit to wear and because I haven't been out like that in ages I haven't even got anything in my wardrobe that I can wear as its either too small (my boobs have grown since I last wore dressy outfits) or the dresses I do have are very winter and causal style so I need to go out and find something. 

That is all that is planned for March at the moment, I also want to get my Insomnia under control as its got to the point now where my body is getting used to surviving on 3/5 hours sleep which makes me a emotional wreck for the day. Also I want to get back into a routine with the blog, I find if I have days where I need to do certain post that I actually do it if that makes sense but if I don't have anything in mind then I just won't even bother. Blogging for me is a sense of therapy is that makes sense kind of sense, it is like an online diary and notebook where I can share all my feelings and be myself on and it makes me happy knowing people are reading my post so I need to motivate myself in March. 

Fingers crossed March is a good month for everyone and also am excited for the weather to get abit warmer :) 

Love Katie x 

A Diet Challenge - Week 1

Katie - Brevile Smoothy Diet

A week into the diet challenge and I've failed already by not even starting it. I did mentioned in the first post that I was going to start after I got the food items at the weekend but last Friday I got diagnosed with Colitis so I haven't really been up to anything to be honest. I opened the box but I haven't yet to even test it out. I've started getting a few stuff for it but I want to start once I've got everything so let's hope next week update I will have something to actually update you all on and would of started it. Fingers crossed.

Bethany - Slimfast Diet

So a week in!! It all started so well wasn't feeling any hunger ect at the beginning but I did have a water infection when I stated and I go off my food when I have them anyway so that could be why!! I went away at the welend Friday to Monday I ain't going to lie I slipped up! Who wouldn't when they are away with their family??  I'm starting to feel so hungry now I think it's because I'm due a period and as us women know it bloats us out and makes us wanna snack like crazy! It can also play part to weight when weighing ourselves. Bad news I ain't really lost anything but good news is I ain't put anything on. Maybe I will feel better when I start to see results eh. I think the moral of the story here is don't start a diet till after your holiday and if your due a period just after you start you may wana wait till after! 

I hope for  a better week this week though with the up coming period I don't expect the scales to be nicer next week

I get so bloated when it's that time of the month! 

LotsOfLove

Katie & Beth...xxx

Primark P.S. Love Your Hair : Moisturising Range

It's usually Beth who does the hair post as she is a hairdresser and out of us both she knows her hair stuff and I don't have a clue when it come to hair. But few weeks ago when I was in Primark in Lakeside I purchased these two as I wanted to try something new as I've been using TRESemme shampoo and conditioner for along time so fancied a change. What appealed me to this ones from primark was that both contained Moroccan Argan Oil and Keratin which I thought might be good for my hair. Although I haven't had my hair coloured since September 2013, I did start having it coloured since I was 13 and to make matters worse Im natural Blonde who had it coloured Dark Brown for years then Jet Black so it's fair to say my hair is damaged. Even though I've had nearly a two year break with no colour as I wanted to go medium brown naturally, I can still tell its damaged and dry from the colouring. My hair is very long so washing it is a massive effort to be honest but luckily I only wash it once/twice a week as it doesn't really get badly greasy. 

So yesterday I tried these Primark moisturing Shampoo and condition and I'm very impressed. The shampoo claimed to cleanse, restore and moisturises the hair which I have to say it does, you don't need a lot of the product which helps as I've got long hair and it felt clean and very soft. Then I applied the conditioner which claimed to help improve shine, locks moisturiser in leaving a silky soft touch and like the shampoo the products goes along way. I like to use my conditioner more as a mask so I do leave it on longer that I would if I was quickly washing hair. Once I rinsed off I instantly felt like my hair was more healthy and it felt so smooth. I leave my hair to dry naturally when I can but I apply an oil to the ends of my hair when it's damp. My hair did look really shiny not the greasy look, it looked like I've hair washed my hair with high end products so I'm really impressed.

What I loved most apart from the price tag is that the scent, it's not too overpowering but it does leave a nice fresh scent to the hair. The P.S. Love You Hair range was rather varied and there was a Brunette range I would like to try. I think Primark are doing really well with their beauty products this year. Me and Beth got one of their Lipstick Gloss in Red and it's amazing so I would defiantly recommend this hair shampoo and conditioner. I'm going to pick this up for Beth when I'm in Primark next to see if she likes it and shares the same opinon. 

I might do more beauty related posts  in the future what do you think? Also has any of you tried this range or any of the other ranges from Primark? Did you like or hate? Let me know :) 

Katie x

A Diet Challenge

Katie - Brevile Smoothy Diet

I've always had problems with my weight and if you read some of my posts before you would know I've also suffered with eating disorder and even though I don't suffer with that anymore, it's still always on back of my mind. My weight always up and down but for past two years it's stayed the same, with some months going up and down by only a few pound. 

I actually like my figure, I have big boobs and small waist.. It's just my belly, legs and arms I want to loose weight and tone up on. I would love to try slim fast, slimming word or those kinda of ways but because I'm currently under going alot of tests for my bowel ect I can't try any of those and also recently found out I'm diary intolerant. So I decided getting a blender was the best idea, to make a fresh smoothie/juice every morning to start me off then eat healthy for rest of my meals. I ordered the Breville blend active blender on Amazon early this week which hasn't come yet but it was on offer to £20 from £30.

People would class me as a fussy eater but that's just me. I only really eat chicken to be honest. I think I eat mostly healthy food anyways but for me the biggest thing is not eating at the right time. Having so many health problems lately it's massively effecting on my diet. Some medication make me sick or feel Sick which doesn't make me want to eat a proper meal so mostly I just eat plain toast. I don't drink any fizzy so I'm okay with drink, I just need to drink more water . So my plan is to make a healthy smoothie/juice drink every morning ( I have been googling a lot of receipes which I will do a post when I've tried them out), I need to do a big shop on fruit ect which I can't do til the weekend so I will start this on Monday. 

I'm a size 12/14but I want to be more 10/12 which I used to be and 80% of my clothes are so I need to just loose abit. My boobs are big so I always have to get a bigger size for my top half which is annoying and whenever I've lost weight in the past I never loose it on my boobs. I'm not going to make this into a BIG thing as I don't want to become too obssesed then go back into old ways and then into a eating disorder, but having Beth doing something similar is a massive help. 

Beth - Slimfast Diet

I used to be a size 10 and obviously having children I have worked my way up to a size 12/14. So as you can see me and Katie are of similar weight. And both want to get down to the same size of a size 10. I've never been good at just eating better sounds bad don't it! So I've decided the best way forward for me would be slimfast. I'm a girl who loves my food so I know it's going to be tough but with good support and determination I can do it. 

My diet will consist of 

Breakfast - Slimfast meal bar or shake 

Slimfast Snack

Lunch - Slimfast Shake 

Slimfast Snack

Dinner - Calorie controlled meal 

I'm not happy with my body at the moment which is why I'm doing this so it takes a lot of effort for me to post my starter picture, I don't want to scare you all! But I gotta do it 

It's pure coincidence that we have both chose to diet at the same time, but seeing as we have we are going to post our journeys and why not compare the diets at the same time! 

 We will be posting weekly 

Wish us luck!! 

LotsOfLove 

Katie&Beth...xxx 

Toddler Toilet Torture!!

My beautiful 3 year old Ava, Is a happy smily active clever 3 year old. She is not a sucky child and is always cheeky to the max! Such a joy to have and joy to look after making us cry with laughter every single day.

BUT then my daughter that I know and love disappears and this little girl who is curled up in pain & screaming turns up Infront of me and I felt helpless and panicky because this little girl is my daughter and there is absolutely nothing I can do to help her. 

Sounds odd don't it? You see my little princess has been suffering with constipation for well over a year and I have had endless trips upstage hospital with her and would you believe things are not much better! It all started with the "classic" constipation where she didn't go to the toilet for days. Eventually when she went unnoticed a small amount of blood, and took her up the hospital. I got reassured that she was okay and was told to try lactilose. So I did. It didn't work. I then found myself up there again and got sent away with movicol and some diet changes. This worked for a bit and thought we were going somewhere.

Oh how wrong was. My poor little girl got hit with constipation again. This time she appeared to be in more pain. Walking around on her tip toes but going to the toilet a little bit. I have to give her disprol instead of calpol as she don't like taking medicine. With a history of bowel problems in the family I took her too the hospital I want her to be referred to pediatrician because the amount of pain she is in is horrible. Again they basically said its normal and for her to be screaming around the house is normal! He sent me away saying to ask my GP to reffer her he once again prescribe movicol. Now this works sometimes. Sometimes it doesn't and as soon as she is off it for a while she is bad again. I can't keep her on it forever surely!

The GP looked at me like I was mad when I asked for referral. I don't know what avenue to go down I hate seeing my little one in pain but no matter what I do or where I go no one has an answer that helps. I feel useless. She is going to the toilet Aswell but you can tell she is constipated and she is still in pain,  I just want my little ones constipation to clear up for good and so she can be out of pain and we can put it behind us.

Can anyone relate? Any advise this is more of a mums SOS for advice... Please get in touch via Twitter or Instagram EssexToWindsor 

LotsOfLove

Beth...xx

Katie's Health Update #5

Pics from my last operation.

Opps!! Its been well over a month since I done my last update here. I have honestly had so much going on that I have forgotten lol!! So my last update I told you all that I was getting ready for my next operation on the 29th January and I posted about it here. Click on that link to hear more but without going into too much detail it hurt so much, the actual operation and recovery itself was so painful. I get the results from this operation and my operation in December on 20th Feb so soon which I shall keep you all updated on. 



I also had my back specialist appointment few days before my last operation and I didn't get any answers I thought I would of gotten. The specialist I never seen her before and in all honesty I didn't like her, she didn't ask much questions, didn't read my notes properly and basically she has forward me to another specialist. That is only problem with my back people is that I never see the same person which is annoying. The first person I saw who is my actual main doctor for back she was brilliant but I never saw her again. My back is same and as always getting worse, it was a year the other day that I started getting this pain and nothing has really been done, I've just been given loads of medications and I feel abit fed up. So lets hope the other specialist they have referred to can give me answers. 

Bandage.. rather attractive haha 

Another thing that has recently started.. Few weeks ago I started getting pain and aches in my right wrist and just put it down to slept funny on it/cold weather but it was getting worse and seeing as I had a doctors app the week after it started I thought I would mention it to him. He has given me some gel and told to apply a bandage type on which helps alot but have to go back next time I go to see if any better if not he going to do a xray. He said it might be related to my back problems which is why he wants to keep an eye on it. The gel doesn't seem to do anything to be honest as I don't notice the pain go when I apply it. Sometimes the bandage helps alot and sometimes it makes it worse. It's something I never really suffered with and because it is my right hand as seeing as Im a righty I think it makes it worse because naturally I use that hand more. Its made simple tasks seem harder. I hope it just a pain that will go soon to be honest. I went bowling the other weekend for Beth's mum birthday and no idea how but I won bowling even though I was in alot of pain with my wrist and back lol 


I didn't know whether to write about this because it quite personal but I thought I might help someone. I was first diagnosed with Depression 10 years ago this year and while at my last doctor check up, the doctor just randomly ask me how I was feeling? and I sort of poured my heart out to him and thought I might aswel be honest to him. He is a newish doctor to me but I trust him as he has been so good with my back. I've been feeling depressed, anxiety and getting alot of panic attacks over the past few months, although I had all above for ages but recently it has got worse and I didn't want to admit it. The doctor booked a double appointment for the next week to speak more, so I went to the appointment and weirdly I opened up easily. He suggested talking therapy but its something I don't feel that would help at the moment, I've had therapy on/off since I was 12 so I didn't feel like it would help right now. Im not saying it doesn't help because it does but in my life right now I don't feel like its for me. I have Beth in my life now who I can talk to about everything so I know she is sort of my way of "therapy". So he suggested going back on Anti Depressant and at first I was like Hmmm... But think I thought to myself there is no harm of trying them again, I've been on so many types but my life is alot different now so why not give them ago. He has prescribed me ones that I was on few years ago and ones that are safe for me as Im on a few other medication. So I only been on them a week and obviously from previous years I know they take ages to kick in so I can't say much about them. I urge anyone who feels low or down to tell your doctor, I wished I done it months ago to be honest. Just telling your doctor takes a massive weight of your shoulders. 

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Another thing that I haven't told the doctor about but Im going to mention it because its turning me into an emotional wreck. I've been having Insomnia for so long now. I haven't told doctors as I thought it would go but its getting too much now. I have tried so much to help but nothing seems to work. I could have the busiest weekend and still not sleep arghhhhh. 

That's all for my #5 health update, I will do it next month in the first week rather than leaving it for so long like last time. opps! Got my bowel specialist on Friday so hopefully I will get some answers :) 

Love Katie x 

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Valentine's

Firstly I would like to say that I hope everyone has had a happy loved filled valentines :). I personally have had one of the best days celebrating love of all kind that is in my life. Obviously I've had the most traditional love of valentines which is the love from my husband to be and my love for him and also the love love of my beautiful children. 

I would certainly like to say a big thank you to my Tommy he has spoilt me rotten! I recieved this morning a pair of Nike trainers and a lovely set of chocolates mug and socks and a marshmallow lolly! Topped off by a lovely meal In TGI Fridays. While I'm here I have to recommened TGI's for special occasions you definitely get what you pay for especially if you have the ribs! 

After the lovely meal I came home to find another gift. So shell shocked that I had recieved something else I couldn't really take it in. I had already been lucky enough to receive something else I was gobsmacked. You see I'm a very grateful person and I never expect anything, I have Tommy and my girls they are enough to make me happy every day and Tommy does so much for me already everyday I would never expect

Anything more from him. But anyway Tom is the most romantic man I have meant and is always treating me so to come home a beautiful  bunch of roses and a lovely valentines card I had tears in my eyes. Roses are my favourite bunch of flowers.

I also loved my card and the thought and effort my Mr Perfect put into it...

The amount that Tommy does for me I wanted to get him something special, something not to over the top but something to say that I know him that I take notice. So using me brain I thought of making him a little hamper using a basket I got at home and purchasing his gifts tissue paper and wrapping paper I was away. And I'm glad to say he loved it in his hamper he got a variety of chocolates he likes, wine, deodorant, Mr perfect boxers and some Mr men socks. 

He loves his card too!... 

Now valentines is not just about the relationship love. I believe it's about any kind of love. Including the love for your children. Me and Tommy really embraced this and made Valentine's Day about all of us, as a family because when you have a family that is what Valentine's Day is truely about. So we got the girls a valentines gift and they also came a long to the meal too we had a really lovely day all together, we got Ava a Disney princess hair set and egg and Bella Winnie the Pooh rattle. 

Overall today has been filled with love and laughter for me and my family. I am one lucky girl. I couldn't ask for a better husband to be I will love him now and forever till the day I die. We also have the two best daughters who we love more than anyone could ever know who we would die for. 

I hope everyone has enjoyed their day as much as I and my family has.

LotsOfLove

Beth...xxx

A Surprise Valentine's Day Card

Being single and actually having bad past experience with Valentine's Day I don't care too much for it. But I don't turn all depressed and generally are happy for people who get treated and spoilt for Valentine days although more people need to share their love more than one day a year haha!!

Yesterday I was feeling abit down well actually past few weeks I have. I was in bed and my mother came to give me my post, which was a card from Funky pigeon as you can tell from the envelope. I was slightly confused because I'm not in any sort of relationship or close to any guy who would send me a card, it's not my birthday or anything, anyways I ripped it open as I was so curious. And when I saw I automatically burst into tears. It was a Valentine's Day card from my Nieces (well beth ha), the pictures and words inside honestly cheered me up instantly. It just what I needed after feeling so crap lately. I love my nieces so bloody much and being nearly 2 hours away from them makes it harder to cope with but this card was the best idea ever. I've got the card up by my window which I can see from my bed so now I will look at the card everytime I feel down to remind me that I have no reason to be down when I have two beautiful nieces. Also thank you to Bethany, we spent last weekend together and we had such a good time which meant all this week I've been feeling extra down because I miss her so much. I admit I'm crying writing this right now haha.. One day and hopefully soon they will be moving near me and that thought literally is keeping me going right now. 

So Valentine's Day alone isn't bad at all, you don't have to be in a relationship to celebrate it, isn't it meant to be about love? It's doesn't matter who to!! Thank you once more to my Nieces and Sister In Law :) Little things like that mean the world, that's why me and beth get on so well because we are so similar and think alike. Massive love, hugs and kisses to everyone today. I think Bethany is going to do a Valentine's Day post but obviously she is engaged so her post will be different but also good because I know what my brother has gotten her so she will be very impressed. 

Happy Valentine's Day everyone. 

Love Katie x

HAIR: Cheaper The Better?

When talking about hair products you initially think that the branded more expensive products will work better. I bet thousands of you look endlessly at all the different brands and think which one is actually the best.. They all say the same and all come with that whopping price tag. 

I personally have tried and tested so many branded mousses and hairspray. Tbh with all the branded ones I tried I was never satisfied, one either never worked or one didn't hold my hair for long enough or one was too tough to brush out. If I am fair the only branded one I found worked the best was treseme and is actually quality for the price the can will last you forever too! While I'm hear I will say as far as shampoo and conditioner goes I would get treseme all day long, not only does it leave your hair feeling softly fresh but it will last you a hell of a long time. Me and Katie where using the same bottle when living together and it lasted us over a month. 

Back to the subject now ... Ha ha. After going through countless products I have found one hairspray that leaves me satisfied in all alreas it lasts all day and is fairly easy to brush out too! This is Tesco own brand hairspray in the purple tin can.

 I have been using this for a while and it never fails to disappoint... Also with a lovely price tag of £0.70p you can't go wrong not complain! With this you can have lovely held hair allowing you to have your hair in any style you want in any weather even if you do live on a budget. This will be budget shoppers best hair friend :). 

I would also like to recommend another cheaper hair product. This would be dry shampoo. Dry shampoo has really took off and let's be homes it was only about time that stores started doing their own. 

I don't know about you but white marks on my hair when using it was a real pain in the bum. I had stopped using it due to this that was until I stumbled accross asdas own brand. This is the one in the blue tin. I can spray my hair creating a lot of volume and putting the greasy look off and not looking like I've aged early! No white marks. For this you will only have to pay £1.00. 

I hope this has showed you that quality and all in the price figures or the big names and to find quality its best to shop around trying things you may never normally try. I also hopes this reassures those who have to live on a budget that they don't have to hot with out and they can still have good hair products and create good styles. Remember "proofs in the pudding" as they say.

LotsOfLove 

Beth...xxx

HAIR: The Perfect Finish

Have you ever wanted a lovely salon finish to your hair from shine, to smell, to feel? I can recommend a definite way for this and that is Pearl Styler by Wella. 

This product is more on the costly side than the budget side. You know what I'm like I would rather recommend budget products as most people have to count the pennies these day. But I certainly believe you get what you pay for with this. You also don't need to use a lot of this each time, just a little will do this means it will last a while even more so if you are a person who will just us it for special occasions. 

I know some people don't do their hair all done up everyday. I mean the majority of people don't unless your in the cast of "The Only Way Is Essex" or "Made In Chelsea" but I still think it's good to invest in because when you go out you want to look a million dollars. This will seal the deal. 

I know you all probably think I'm some crazy hairdresser trying to sell you something I wouldnt recommend anything rubbish. I'm not trying to sell I'm trying to advise those of you who want to get shine and finish to your hair. 

How To Use 

So do your usual wash and blow dry, you can straighten or curl or even do a curly blow dry. You then squeeze a tiny pea sized amount into the palm of your hand then rub them together to warm the product up. You them run you hands gently through the hair styling  it in any direction  that you want, with curls you can mould the product through the Chris making them a bit more defined. It leaves your hair with a nice shine. 

You can get this product maybe from your hairdresser EBay or Amazon. retails from £7.99 on EBay and £7.50 from Amazon. I do apologise I haven't got a picture but it is in a silver and orange bottle. 

Hope this helps you all get a lovely finish on your hair. It's just simply a recommendation. 

This is the first of many hair posts I will be doing ranging from product to styles  to advice ect. If there are any hair things you particularly want to know about on this blog then please tweet us or Instagram us nam Essextowindsor. 

LotsOfLove 

Beth...xxx

Boots Bargain Haul/Whats On My Face/Review

The goodies.

So on Wednesday I popped into town after Doctors. My doctors is very close to Windsor Town and seeing as My mother needed to get her prescription we decided to go into town for the morning. Had zero plans to get anything or to spend money to be honest as this weekend Im off to Essex so need money for that. We was in boots as on the corner of one of the aisle we noticed this 90% sale and I was like what 90% is mental surely its not right. They had didn't have much but they had Beyonce, Katy Perry and Union J perfume gift sets and weirdly I fell in love with one of the Katy Perry perfume last year. We asked one of the staff to check the prices at the tills because it seemed abit too cheap. The Beyonce gift sets was £28 to £2.80 and the Katy Perry gift sets one was £30 to £3 and other one was £23.50 to £2.35 how crazy is that!!! My mother got a few and so did I but there was some left I wish I picked them all up. I also got the new Rimmel lasting finish nude foundation which was on offer to £4.99 from £7.99 and also got Rimmel lasting finish primer which was on offer at £3.99 from £6.99 so in total I saved myself £104.55 how bloody mental!! Im going to give one of the Beyonce Sets to Beth  when I see her this weekend (Hope she isn't reading this because I haven't told her haha). I tried the new primer and Foundation today and first impressions Im very impressed, Im going to take both to Beth's this weekend and let her try as she is the same skin type and colour in Rimmel foundations as me so I want to see if she shares the same opinion. I do love Rimmel Face products tbh always have so I knew this was going to be good but Im more than impressed. 

I took a picture of the receipt to prove it haha. 

I opened the Beyonce gift set earlier and was so impressed as its four little perfume spray and different scent so its so handy to put one in my handbag as its perfect size. Good for travel aswel so Im impressed. I hope Beth likes them well I know she likes Beyonce perfect called Heat as so Do I. Going to take one this weekend as Im off to Essex, sometimes it a pain taking the usual size perfume bottles it came be sucha pain in the bum fitting them in your bag as they are always too big so Im glad I got this before Essex so it would take up any space in my bag. 

The Rimmel lasting primer and foundation primer.

Excuse me looking a mess, it was a pjs, bad hair and cleaning kind of day but I wanted to try them. In this picture I got on 

• Rimmel Lasting Finish Primer
• Rimmel Lasting Finish Foundation Nude in 100 Ivory 
• Maybelline Brow Drama Mascara in Medium Brown
• Benefit Roller Lash Mascara Out to buy on the 12th Feb(Sample from Elle Magazine) 

I literally am so impressed, I had bad skin at the mo from being in hospital last week I always get bad skin and from being worried ect but this Rimmel combo is amazing. Btw I need my Eyebrows threaded but I am totally loving the brow drama. Also Im sure if you read blogs you would know and probably sick of hearing about the new Benefit Roller lash mascara but seriously it worth the money and hype. Its AMAZING!! It is everything you want in a mascara, Im deffo sold on buying the full size when it comes out. Im looking forward for Beth to try this to see if she thinks it is good. Her eyelashes are longer than mine but I want her opinion to see if it gives the same effect. 

So that is my mini boots bargain haul/whats on my face/review haha. I'm going to Beth's tomorrow for the weekend so Im looking forward to that. Hopefully we will try and take some pictures because we haven't got alot of pictures of just us for our blog like about us page/blog picture ect. Also if we have time we can write a post together like we use to when we lived together :) But then again we will probably be just laughing like we always do when we are together. Hope everyone has a good weekend :) 

Love Katie xx 

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Will I Ever Be A Mummy?

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When growing up, most girls dream of the fairy tale story meeting the man of your dream, having a large family living in a nice big house. Then you soon realise in your late teens none of that above happens. To some it might happen but I'd say for most of us it doesn't. When I was 17 I fell in love pretty quick and gotten into an deep serious relationship and I was completely head over heels and I truly believed I met the "one". Oh how wrong I was!! At that time I believed I was going to be with this man for the rest of my life so getting pregnant and having a family wasn't a bad idea, of course we spoken about kids names and things like that but we never actually planned 100% but then again we used nothing to stop it happening if that makes sense. To us we thought if it happened it happened as we thought we was going to be with each other for life. 

From the day I started my period, it was hell. I always had heavy painful periods. I was being seen by gyne's and other specialist since I was 14. I was given the pill for a few years but later realised I was actually allergic to it so it never done anything to me. One day around the time I was with this guy, I had a real bad bleed and although I was having bad periods then I knew in my mind this was something more. I felt weird at the time and your body knows if there if a difference. I went to the doctors and I wasn't expecting for him to say what he said. He said I suffered an miscarriage. But I didn't even know I was pregnant and he said its just "one of those things" like it was nothing to him, looking back I guess hes job is to tell us straight but for an 17 year old girl to hear those words was quite hard to take in. But it came at the worse time possible, in the same week my boyfriend at the time ended things unexpectedly. I was totally heart broken and fell into an deep depression and even suicidal. I just didn't know to to cope. So I didn't have any time to even think about the miscarriage to be honest. This happened in February 2010 and if Im honest its taken a good few years to get over and realise things. Anyways, my GP sent me off for an Laparoscopy for many different reasons. The results was that I only have one ovary and many other things which could be a reason why I find it hard to get pregnant. During the Laparoscopy they inserted an Coil to help with my periods. Obviously it also used an a protection towards pregnancy but I was single and I didn't have any plans to get pregnant so I didn't mind having the coil. 

Now that coil was possibly the worse choice I've ever made in my life. It caused non stop problems to which I was never told or warned about. Although it did actually stop my periods ,I eventually had it taken out for medical reasons. I made the decision to not have/take any other form of contraception as I wasn't in a relationship and to best honest I needed to give my body as rest. A few months after I had the coil out I gotten into a relationship. It wasn't as deep serious relationship to be honest so I instantly went and got the implant in my arm but this is when the bad luck started again.

I was starting to feel quite ill, and at this point I wasn't having an period as since the coil it ruined me and stopped my periods. Same as before I had a big bleed but I honestly thought it was down to the implant so I went to the doctors weeks later as I didn't think nothing of it. I remember this so well it was a Monday I went to the doctors but at this point I was no longer with this boyfriend as we went our separate ways but the doctor done tests and told me I was pregnant. I was shocked!! I had no clue or idea tbh as I had the implant and thought I would know it I felt "pregnant" if that makes sense. I had no idea how many weeks I was so my GP booked me into an early scan the week later which shown I was 8/10 weeks gone. By this time me and this guy wasn't on speaking terms and made it impossible to get hold of. I didn't want to but my only option was to text him as he wasn't answering calls. I was an adult and told him as I thought he deserved to know and he made the decision right there and then via text he didn't want to know me/baby or anything to do with pregnancy and wished us "dead". So I mentally prepared to be strong in an instant, I think knowing you have a baby inside you and being alone its makes you strong for the baby and no one else. By this point my Mother was the only other person to know. At that scan they wanted to see me in two weeks to be sure as they had some concerns not majorly but they wanted to be sure. I had mixed weird feelings, I didn't feel or look pregnant, I had no close friends or family to speak to and the whole idea of a "family" was totally gone. Those two weeks wait for the next scan was the longest time on my life. Of course I wanted to know why I was pregnant while having the implant but as we all know nothing is 100%. I wouldn't say I was sad or happy I was feeling weird mixed emotions. Abortions wasn't an option and it NEVER will be, I wanted this baby so much. So a family wasn't going to happen but me and this baby was going to. I had worries of being told they have concerns but I made plans in my head incase things was okay. 


Two weeks came, I went to the scan alone. I remember my Mother couldn't get time off work. I saw the same person I've seen for years who does scans and went into the same room, I never felt so nervous in my life. The worse happened. I was told I miscarried. Again. For the second time of my life. Two years after my first miscarriage. But this time felt harder to accepted. The first time I didn't know I was pregnant and this time I knew for a few weeks but I had plans and wanted the baby so much. I told the "dad" via his sister as by this point he had a new phone. I never heard from him which proves what sort of dad he would of been like. Someone at the time told me things happen for a reason, which at the time I didn't believe, I just wanted to be a mum and have my baby. But over the years since I have realised things do happen for a reason, someone was telling me that either my body or myself wasn't ready ect there must of been a reason. I have an implant in now, still don't get periods, never been told why I lose my two babies and been told its just one of those "things". I had to wait til Im 25 years old to get loads of test if I still have problems then.


The thought of never being a Mother and having my own family scares me. ALOT! It is something I think about daily but I never tell anyone. I think having two beautiful Nieces keeps me sane. I have never been jealous of pregnant women or people who have kids as it's no ones fault but naturally I always think what if ect. I always felt guilty for crying about the past, but I only recently learnt that crying once in a while is okay. I've sort of accepted that if I never be a mother than its okay, Im a Auntie to the most two beautiful girls in the world who I love so much and always will be. My Mother didn't fall pregnant with me til she was 28 and after she had me and my Brother she had an miscarriage and also tried with her now husband and can't have anymore kids so I obviously get it from my Mother. But knowing she got two kids sort of keeps me going, maybe my body is telling me I need to get healthy before I have a baby in a few years. Im not in a relationship right now and whenever I meet a man I just want to get to know him and have fun making memories. Saying all of that I don't want to jump into a relationship and have a baby ASAP, that I s the last thing that I want. But if things happen to happen that way then as I've said before things do happen for a reasons. I know I have fertility problems/history of miscarriages so I have to be realistic that I might have so much trouble or it might never happen. I have always said "there are people much more worse of than me" and I like to live by that quote. I think for me to even be alive and breathing is enough, Okay I have many health problems that I wish not to have and life is probably the worse it has been in terms of luck ect but right now Im lucky. It has taken me a good two years to realise all of this stuff and I think being around Beth throughout most of her pregnancy made me realise this. Im so blessed to of been living with her throughout most of her pregnancy, be with her during her midwife and specialist appointments, Her 3D scan and generally being with her. I truly hope my Brother and Beth have more kids so I can have more nieces or nephews, Im also lucky enough to get on with Beth. It makes life so much easier. 

At first I never told rest of my Family apart from my Mother, but when I did they made me feel like it was my fault. As I mentioned in my post HERE that my family are not very supportive. That is why my second miscarriage was harder because I had no one around me at all. Yes I had my Mother who been through the same experience but it was something we never spoken about, maybe because it was too hard for us both to talk about it. Since then I've had alot of therapy and last year having Beth around has helped alot. I have alot to thank her for, she may not know how much she does for me. Just for her to listen, be there for me and she been through some stuff in her past same as me so we can understand each other. 

So I would be lying if I said Im not scared that I will never be a mummy because I am. Im worried. But over the years Im learning to deal with stuff alot better than before. I will come to that hurdle when I have a partner and we want a baby, I will at least be strong and know all the facts if or when that time comes. Have any one been through similar? Let me know or email me. It would be nice to have a chat with some people who understands.

Love Katie 
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Clever Cakey!

So yesterday was my mothers birthday. Happy Birthday Mum :) 

As she was getting about her business she had a strange parcel come through the post. (I don't mean for this to sound creepy lol) when she opened it she found a tin. Confused she opened it to find a little cake personalised been sent by my brother for her birthday.

This cake has to be the cutest cake I have ever seen. It is like a minature birthday cake. Small enough to be packaged and posted straight through the letterbox. They have it called the "letterbox cake" for obvious reasons. They also send out a balloon and candles with it too! 

This is such a perfect idea for a little gift for lots of occasions like birthdays, anniversaries, mothers/Father's Day and get well soons. It comes in very handy for those family members and friends who don't see that often.

So if your stuck for gift ideas or your buying for someone who has everything this little idea is a perfect gift that is sweet, says a lot and tastes nice too! 

You can purchase these at www.Bakerdays.com they do cakes all sizes and deliver :)

LotsOfLove 

Beth...xxx

Challenge Two!

I haven't done a parenting blog post in a while. I thought I may let you all know how I'm getting on with two... 

Those who say having two is easy must be telling porkies! Because I can confess it is one of the most demanding and hard working parenting jobs! I love having my two girls and I love running around all day sorting out my two little princesses. But there is no point lying it does leave me knackered at the end of the day. I Spose you can say having two is tireing, demanding, hard work, joyful, rewarding and most heart warming things in the world and to be honest I wouldn't have it any other way. I love being a mummy of two! 

Particularly at the moment my 3 year old Ava's behaviour has gotten a bit worse. I think maybe at times she may be fighting for attention but sometimes this is not the reason. When you have two especially when one is so young and needs feeds and bum changes there and then when they need them it's hard for the older child to understand that the baby don't understand and the whole daily routine has to managed around the lovely new bundle. It's a good idea to keep the older child involved as much as possible, letting them help with nappy changes and feeds and letting them have cuddles as much as possible. It will help them see the new baby is not a threat but a companion. I've noticed when Ava's helping her behaviour is better, though she can still show off its not as bad. 

 I'm confident I've got the managing of Ava's jealousy behaviour changes under control and I am getting all the tips I can off of health visitors ect to manage the rest of it. She is a lovely little girl but she just puts a litttle guard up sometimes when she's upset or angry. 

 Going back to the  let the toddler help topic Ava is a good little helper always on hand to pass me nappies and wipes and to throw things in the bin ect. She has always been happy to lend her mummy a hand, ending the task with a lovely " I love you mummy " this melts my heart everytime.  I love both my girls with all my heart and there's nothing better than having my little girl helping me with my baby girl. It makes me realise that later in life I will have no worries about Ava because she will be such a loving caring young lady. 

Although Ava has felt the normal sibling rivalry with her baby sister it is clear she loves her the world and will protect her and be there for her for the rest of her life. It's also clear that Bella is fascinated with her big sister and loves her also. I know and am confident that my girls will be as thick as thieves. 

LotsOfLove 

Beth...xxx

My Kidney Health

I've never really done a health post before, but I thought it would be good to talk about my health issues that I've had me whole life. Why not? There maybe someone out there who can relate...

Basically I am very prone to kidney infections. Pyelonephritis to be exact. I know for us women it's common to contract bladder infections but I get them more often and they sort of skip my bladder and go straight to my kidney. Every time this happens I end up in hospital for a length of time on a drip and on intravenous antibiotics for a length of time. 

This all started when I was a baby. I was really ill, not taking and milk and crying 24/7. My mum was back and forwards to doctors them telling her there was nothing wrong everytime until eventually going up hospital. It was then that she got told I had a bladder infection that had gone to my kidney I had scarring on my kidney and had to spend 6 weeks in hospital and spending my first Christmas in there. Although scarring heals on the kidney I believe this is why this certain kidney is weaker and getting infections frequently. 

When I was pregnant I got an infection my kidney was dialated and had a stone. This resulted In me having a nephrostomy tube inserted into my kidney to drain it, it was in for just over a week. It is a tube that was inserted into my kidney coming out my back with a bag attached to my leg. 

 It was horrible. I'm not going to lie about my feelings towards having the bag. I hated every minute though it did get easier and in the end it didn't bother me as much. It was hard going out and thinking people were staring and laughing behind my back though of course no one knew it was there as my clothes covered it but in my head that's what I want was thinking. Although before I was discharged I was walking around the hospital and it was on show then and someone stared at it like it was something so abnormal that's never been seen before. That's probably why I was so embarrassed about it. It did its job it helped me get better at that point in my life and although I didn't like having it I'm so grateful because it sorted me out. 

I can't describe the pain when I get a kidney infection and unless you have had a kidney infection you will never experience pain like it. I am so scared of getting another one as I don't wanna end up on hospit again. I'm a mother I don't want to be away from my children. 

I think I've bored you enough with my medical history now ha ha. As I say I hope people can read this and relate:) For those who have never had a real bad kidney infection yes it is really painful

And yes it is really easily treated with the right antibiotic so please don't be scared. I only get scared because I've suffered with them all my life and I'm just tired of getting them. 

LotsOfLove

Beth...xxx

50 Facts About Me By Katie

By the title this is my 50 facts about me. I've seen so many youtubers and bloggers do this either on YouTube, blogs and Instagram but I thought I would do it via our blog so yeah lets get on with it... 

1. My name is Katie Price (YES LIKE JORDAN)

2. I have an phobia of Fish (Dead or alive)

3. Im a dog person not a cat person

4. I have one small star tattoo on my left wrist

5. I lost both of my Granddads when I was 5 years old

6. I was servery bullied which lead to death threats in year 11 which left me to never return back to school

7. I support and love Chelsea FC

8. I suffer with panic attacks and anxiety 

9. My best years of my life was me, mother and Brother all living in a flat together (Life was easier/better then)

10. I wanted to be a Nurse in the army or an Estate Agent

11. I actually done Estate Agent as a placement and LOVED IT

12. I massively regret not getting a good education but it was down to that fact of being badly bullied

13. My Brother is literally just over 12 months younger than me

14. My Brother is my best friend 

15. Im not a morning person 

16. Im naturally a Blonde (Barbie Blonde aswell)

17. I was actually good at Maths, ICT and Geography and would of chosen them as a A LEVEL if I could

18. I have a large family both sides and grew up being close to them

19. Now most of my family have split up and now its an very small family (JEALOUSLY COMES WITH BEING A BIG FAMILY)

20. I've had bad luck with everything since I was 13 years old

21. I fell in love very young which ended not good but I don't regret a thing

22. I had a eating disorder when I was a teenager and still struggle with food

23. I love living in Windsor, can't see myself moving away yet

24. If/When I move it will be either local or in Essex way

25. My Dad is from and lives in Bristol 

26. My dad left when I was 7 years old and my Mother has brought me up alone

27. I've been to Devon twice a year for the past 7 years with family 

28. Im a APPLE addict and I will only own a Iphone lol

29. I've had 3 proper relationships 

30. Im obsessed with candles, cushions and make up 

31. I have slight OCD and clean my room "properly" every day

32. I have fertility problems

33. I've two miscarriages and worry I will never be a mum

34. Only in past few years I've been allergic to flour 

35. I have 19 cousins

36. I have to re do my bed every time in the night I get up.. meaning Move the pillows tidy up the duvet!! 

37. I have two Nieces who I adore and love so much

38. When I was 16 to 17 I went clubbing pretty much every weekend which has now made me hate clubs and getting drunk

39. My Guilty pleasure is Jeremy Kyle/USA version as it makes my life seem so much better haha 

40. I'm addicted to pink lucozade

41. I felt like I grew up too quick and hardly experience stuff most 16/17/18 years old do

42. My dad was a guardmen for Windsor Castle 

43. I LOVE anything from Lush, Cath Kidston and Soap and Glory 

44. Im too stubborn and hardly listen to people

45. Being from a Big family has made me want to always have a small family of my own and live away from the hassle

 

46. My best holiday was the Dominican Republic

47. I'd love to be a Mum in the next few years (Very much doubt it will happen tho)

48. Being in pain 24/7 with AS is so frustrating and feel like Im missing out on so much and find it hard to deal with

49. I HATE living so far away from my Brother, Sister in law and nieces 

50. Finally... I love writing a blog with Bethany and I'm so glad my brother is with someone I love and get on with so much. Proud to call her my sister in law 

Woah... that took ages!! I harder than you think to think of 50 facts about yourself. Im sure there is sooooo much more but I honestly just couldn't think of any exciting ones or maybe that means my life is just boring haha. I tag Bethany actually and everyone of course :) I like these relax random fun posts I might so some more. Maybe once a month thing ect. I get so carried away with the health or lifestyle post that its nice to take break from being serious and do fun random posts. Let me know if there is any tags you would like myself and Beth to do :) 

Love Katie x

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