Happy Fathers Day To My Mother

The Price Family

Today is a very weird day for me. Seeing most people celebrate and writing statuses about Fathers Day. For me this is just any other normal day which doesn't bother me but it's made me feel abit emotional this year. I know who my Dad is and he was the most amazing Dad ever but that all changed when I turned 5 years old. He changed, he cheated, he moved out, he moved to Bristol and went quiet for years so myself and my Brother didn't have any contact for years and that made us not particularly like him. Then in mine and my Brother teenager years we started seeing our Dad once a year, twice if we was lucky. I've never had that Father & Daughter bond or relationship and ever now when we are together I find it incredibly awkward and difficult to talk to or find something in common. People may feel sorry for myself and my Brother and I feel like people must feel like we missed out but that couldn't furthest from the truth. We had our Mother bringing us up alone and we had the best time ever, just us three. This has meant that even though my Brother is 13 months younger, he is the "father figure" in my life. I'm not going to lie all of this has made it very hard for me to trust men, I have a fear of everyone just leaving and walking out of my life, I maybe didn't experience the normal daddy and daughter memories but it has made me respect my Mother so much for bringing us up alone. I don't "hate" my Father and the love I have for him isn't the same love I have for my Mum. Now he is a Granddad to Ava & Bella, I thought he might of stepped up and be a good Granddad but he has only seen Bella once and hasn't made any effort to make plans to see the girls and us. 

So happy "Fathers" day to all the single Mothers who are doing the perfect job. Also Happy Fathers Day to my amazing Brother. He is the best and perfect Daddy to Ava Lily & Bella Mai, I am so proud of him. 

Love Katie xx 

Toddler Toilet Torture!!

My beautiful 3 year old Ava, Is a happy smily active clever 3 year old. She is not a sucky child and is always cheeky to the max! Such a joy to have and joy to look after making us cry with laughter every single day.

BUT then my daughter that I know and love disappears and this little girl who is curled up in pain & screaming turns up Infront of me and I felt helpless and panicky because this little girl is my daughter and there is absolutely nothing I can do to help her. 

Sounds odd don't it? You see my little princess has been suffering with constipation for well over a year and I have had endless trips upstage hospital with her and would you believe things are not much better! It all started with the "classic" constipation where she didn't go to the toilet for days. Eventually when she went unnoticed a small amount of blood, and took her up the hospital. I got reassured that she was okay and was told to try lactilose. So I did. It didn't work. I then found myself up there again and got sent away with movicol and some diet changes. This worked for a bit and thought we were going somewhere.

Oh how wrong was. My poor little girl got hit with constipation again. This time she appeared to be in more pain. Walking around on her tip toes but going to the toilet a little bit. I have to give her disprol instead of calpol as she don't like taking medicine. With a history of bowel problems in the family I took her too the hospital I want her to be referred to pediatrician because the amount of pain she is in is horrible. Again they basically said its normal and for her to be screaming around the house is normal! He sent me away saying to ask my GP to reffer her he once again prescribe movicol. Now this works sometimes. Sometimes it doesn't and as soon as she is off it for a while she is bad again. I can't keep her on it forever surely!

The GP looked at me like I was mad when I asked for referral. I don't know what avenue to go down I hate seeing my little one in pain but no matter what I do or where I go no one has an answer that helps. I feel useless. She is going to the toilet Aswell but you can tell she is constipated and she is still in pain,  I just want my little ones constipation to clear up for good and so she can be out of pain and we can put it behind us.

Can anyone relate? Any advise this is more of a mums SOS for advice... Please get in touch via Twitter or Instagram EssexToWindsor 

LotsOfLove

Beth...xx

Sorry for my little break...

Hi everyone :) 

I have recently had to take a little break from blogging.. I've had so much going on. From adapting back to Essex life, Ava's birthday, Christmas and preparing for Bella's birth. 

Now as things start to settle down, Ava's 3rd birthday has come and gone I have things sorted for Christmas and I'm pretty much settled back I can carry on with my weekly blog updates, maybe starting properly back New Years, but doing the bits I can at the moment. 

While I've been away Ava has turned 3!! She had a fabulous birthday and got spoilt rotten, it was safe to say she enjoyed her day.. We took her for a meal and bowling she got loads of present not just from us but from friends and family, I would like to say thank you to everyone Ava loves everything she got.  She is now a big girl of 3 and won't let us forget it reminding us everyday telling us when she see's little babies or little girls/boys. 

As mentioned earlier I have been preparing for Bellas birth.. You guessed it I still haven't had her! I am currently over due at 40+5 .. I have a content little baby in my belly:) I will tomorrow have some news. Fingers crossed. When I find out my date of induction we will then know when our little princess is going to make an appearance! :) 

Due to the fact I could be in hospital over Christmas I've had to make sure Christmas is sorted! Cards are done presents are all bought and wrapped and tagged for everyone! It's been a busy few weeks on that front but I have done it! And I'm relieved! Though I have enjoyed the Christmas rush feeling very Christmassy and festive. 

This is all to tell for now, hope you all enjoyed the little catch up! Once again I apologize for my lack of activity! I will try and update you all on news tomorrow! And now carrying on blogging! 

Lots Of Love 

Beth...xxx