Life has been bloody crazy lately, it was my birthday on 30th April then that weekend I went to Essex and that was a perfect weekend. I had mixed emotions on my birthday to the point where I decided to not go for a meal like I've always done and seeing as I didn't have my brother, sister in law and nieces around I thought there is no need to celebrate, in fact my Colitis was bad that day so wasn't a good day anyways.
Previous to my birthday, Beth has been telling me she got me a birthday surprise and me being not one to have surprises or anyone make much effort on my birthday I honestly didn't have a clue. I don't like attention and I'd much prefer letting someone else take main stage. I love nothing better than buying gifts for people and making them happy but when people do that for me I have no idea how to react because it leaves me speechless as I'm not used to it. So when I arrived to Essex it was mid afternoon and rather hectic with Ava, Bella & including their two cousins so Beth decided to give my pressies, card and surprise once girls gone to bed and tommy was home.
This amazing homemade cake was my surprise. Beth knows I didn't get a cake for my birthday and I haven't for ages and I can't remember the last time I blew out candles so I was literally so shocked and happy. I wished she took a picture of my face because I didn't know what to say. No one has ever made effort like this for me and Beth even made my perfect cake. I also got two very lovely personalisd cards which I love, A lovely photo album which was full of pictures of my Nieces and a Soap & Gloary Birthsy Set. I was so shocked, overwhelmed and happy, all my gifts had so much thought behind them. The Photo Album with pictures of my Nieces and some of Beth and Tommy literally made me so emotional as we don't like close and I miss them all very much so this gift was the best ever because I now have a photo album to look at when I'm feeling sad and also Beth left empty bits so I can fill up so I can have pictures of the girls as the grow up through out the year. I blew my candles out and wished for a pain free sleep hahah.. That's how you know you have chronic illnesses.
My health has been abit all over the place. So my back been the same and I'm on new medication called Gabapentin and so far they seem to be working. Along with Co-Codamol, Tramadol and Gel applied through the day to my back. My Colitis hasn't been good to be honest, I saw a totally different consultant who decided to discharge me totally. I was so pissed off because I've always seen the same person but this one didn't have a bloody clue. I went to my GP and he rang the department up at the hospital and has wrote a letter. My GP was very angry aswel and couldn't understand why that person discharge me when I'm still at early stages and on period trial with Asacol. The Asacol seems to work but I've been so bloated and had other symptoms which I won't go into as TMI but it's not good at the mo.
Moving on to other health stuff, so my depression! My antibiotics have been up to 150MG and they seem to be working and when I'm good I'm very good but but when I'm down I'm extremely low. I hope it starts to settle down soon. Other random stuff... I've got an ultra sound in few weeks as there was an Ovarian Cyst found on my right ovary which was picked up on an MRI scan I had nearly a year ago and I only just got told!! I've suffered with ovary/womb/women issues for years and yeas so touch wood the cyst has cleared up by itself.
How beautiful is Bella Mai who I can't believe is 5 months old in few days. I didn't realise until I had Nieces how quickly they grow up and time flies. I'm back to Essex next Thursday as it is Beths sister wedding next Saturday. We are having a spray tan on Thursday, getting our nails done at Lakeside on Friday and all dressed up for the wedding on Saturday. Obviously Beth is bridesmaid and she is wearing an beautiful dress, il see if she can do a blog post on it because it's really a lovely dress for weddings/events ect. As for myself I brought a dress from a Brand called AX Paris, they are in new look, very and Asos and are very sort of bodycom Going out dresses. I found a Navy midi dress which I fallen in love with and it took me 6 months to find out. I'm not overly confident, I don't like short dresses, I hate my arms, I hate my belly and don't like much colours on me so this was a challenge but this one ticked all the boxes. I shall do a blog post as its made someone very shy not confident low self eastern to feeling amazing, confident and happy just by this one dress. Plus it was a good price so I shall do a post next week.
I still haven't got my laptop fixed so it is hard to do blog posts. I use the blogger app on my phone but I loose interest and it annoys me when it crashes sometimes and don't save the post arghhh! I can use the computer downstairs in the office but it's not the most fastest of comps so I only use that once a week or so. That's all been happening, I say all but I feel boldly exhusated and drained this week. I've had at least one medical appointment a week, it's so many family birthdays in May so I've been having to go into town to get cards, gifts and send them ect. I've been on the spring cleaning around the house and clearing out stuff. I've de clutter and helped mum sort her office and bedroom as she isn't the most organised of people so I helped her as my OCD/organised/tidy person kicked in haha!!!
Hope you all are having a good May even though I feel like it has flown past. It was my dads 50th birthday yesterday and my brother birthday on Sunday so it's birthdays. The weather seems to be getting nicer but I'm a winter girl. Give me rain, blanket, cuppa tea, on the sofa over the sun any day!
Love Katie x
