My Brother and I are only 12 months apart so we are very close and always have had a close bond and I wished our future children would have the bond with each other like we have. I always thought I would be the first to have a baby to be honest as I was older and been in relationships but due to my fertility and miscarriage problems that mean I wasn't the first. When Tommy & Bethany announce they was pregnant with Bella well I say announce but what really happened was myself and my Mother guessed then they confirmed it was true haha!! I was so over the moon and instantly making lists of what to buy my Niece/Nephew (didn't know what sex Bella was back then) and I was so convince they was having a Boy haha!!!
Ava Lily is my best friend. She is the most beautiful, caring, intelligent, funny and understanding 3 year old and I love nothing more than having Niece & Auntie days out. Our trips to the park, shops and walks are some of my best memories. I have learnt a lot since being a Auntie and its defiantly makes you realise how much of a hard job it is and I put my hands up to any parents out there. Although Ava is a very good child and of course she has her moments like every child, I can honestly say I think Beth deserve a medal. When they lived here, I always offered to make her breakfast, wash her, change her ( although she does it herself as she is so independent), take her out, do her lunch and dinner, bath her and put her to bed and I love doing all of that. I know some Aunties are not hands on and I just don't get how. I guess it helps that myself and Bethany are very close but even if we wasn't I would still be hands on.
Bella Mai has only been in my life for 4 months but it is like she has been here forever. That moment I walked into the hospital ward and saw her I just felt this feeling of happiness. Bella is so content, happy, beautiful and alert baby I have ever known. I admit I was scared to hold, feed, wind and change her as she is smaller for her age and looks so fragile. Once Beth helped and reassured me, I got more confident and now I love doing anything for Bella. I wish I lived closer as I would be there helping with the girls while telling Bethany to go and rest.
To me being a Auntie is more than just the typical Auntie role. It has given me the confidence, it has shown me what happiness really is and what being proud really means. When I see Ava say new words, when she shows me what she makes at school and when she tells me " Auntie Katie I love you" it just feels me up with proudness. I guess most aunties don't live with their Nieces but I did for a few months and that did help a lot I think. While Bethany was pregnant and was rushed into hospital, I was beside Ava's bed on the floor holding her hand because she was worried about mummy and didn't want to fall asleep alone. I will and do anything for my Nieces.
I want to thank my Brother and Bethany for giving me two best gifts in my life and making me a proud Auntie. It has made me grow up, more confident and has put life into perspective. I hope one day I can make Tommy into a Uncle and Beth into a Auntie to my child/children. I would love nothing more than to have my own baby. I see how much hard work it is but how rewarding it is. When Bella Mai smiles at me, when Ava Lily cuddles and says I love you, when Bella holds my finger and when Ava runs and gives me the biggest cuddle when I see her.. That is what keeps me going. Those girls have no idea how much they keep me normal haha!! My life isn't the best at the mo with health problems but having Bethany and My Nieces in my life makes things so much easier to deal with.
I love you Bella Mai & Ava Lily, I promise to always care, love and always make you both laugh and smile. And I will continue to have a low bank balance as I can't help myself buying you both Cath Kidston stuff, Converses, books, Lush Bath Bombs for Ava (the robot one) and cute clothes haha!!! I've made Ava obsessed with Cath Kidston kids bags and Lush Baby Bot so you can tell she is defiantly my Niece :)
Love Katie xx
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