Dear Grandad

Hey gramps,

A lots happened since you've been gone. 14 years and yet it still feels like yesterday and still I cant bare to speak about it. I'm sure you've seen  what a hectic life I've lived since but yet I've not been able to talk about any of it  with you. God there have been  so many times where I've fucked up or been down or felt alone or even been  so happy that I have wanted to come to and talk to you about it and ask for your advice. Many of times I've been alone and spoke to you out loud in the hope that maybe you can hear me. I've longed for one last cuddle, one more laugh, one more time shared. All these years there's not been a minute gone by when the longing has stopped. The milestones you've missed, my 16th 18th 21st.  My exams, my daughters birth and soon to be my wedding.
 Oh how I wold have loved to have you there through school, I went a bit off the rails you see, how I know you would have whipped me back on to the straight and narrow. It was being attacked that did to me I didn't know what to do with myself, I felt dirty and wrong. I blamed myself. My world crumbled around me I was hated and told I was lying through my teeth by many people who knew me in school. I didn't even know what had happened, I was young. The police told me what it was. Rape. I needed you. You would have known exactly how to make me feel better, even  if it was just taking my mind off things. I talked to you a lot then. Did you hear? It don't matter if you didn't. it just gave me some comfort talking to you. Anyhow that's how I ended up going off the rails a bit, smoking, drinking, dodgy crowd. I'm not proud of it, infact I'd rather forget about it. I just want to say I'm sorry. The way I acted then I can imagine you were far from proud. Before then I was the good girl you would remember, never putting a foot out of line, shy and respectful. Then after what happened I was rebellious, rude and cocky. I hated myself but I couldn't change. I didn't know how. The events had changed me, morphed me into something new. Yet all the time I just wanted to be the person you would remember. Id still feel close to you then. But she was a distant memory. I love writing to you. The trouble is I don't want to stop, but I have to go get Ava from school and get Bella ready for school. You would love them. Promise me I can chat to again? I will write to you again soon I promise.

chat soon

love you always

BO BO xxx

Happy Birthday Tom!

Happy Birthday Tommy

 

Dear My Tom Tom,

Another year has come around, you are another year older, though you never look it, this makes me insanely jealous. Another year you have worked hard to provide for us. In this year you have made sure a lot happened for us and if it wasn't for you we would be sitting in our own front room right now. You never do all you do for people to notice or for people to tell the world, you do it for us your family because you love us just us much as we love you. You are an insanely fantastic fiancé, loving me, giving me comfort, always being there for me when times are tough, giving me someone to talk too at all hours an working with me as a team to bring up our two gorgeous little girls. This is the perfect time for me to tell you what an amazing daddy you are, you never fail too make our girls smile or laugh, you are and authority figure and their bestest friend. Your the to give them a hand to hold and shoulder to cry on, your everything a daddy should be. So us as your family would like to say a massive THANK YOU for now, for the past and for the future. HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY TOM TOM/DADDY. Have the best day that you deserve. We Love you now and forever.

LotsOfLove
Beth, Ava and Bella...xxx 

 

Perfect pads!

This month I got my usual visit from Mother Nature just when I'm about to settle down for a comfy night cuddling up in bed with my Mr, so yes Mother Nature came knocking at the most inconvenient time once again. Obviously I reached for my usual choice of always across the room and got ready for a few days of pain and discomfort. 

About a day in I ironically hear that my mother in law Shelly was raving at home about the new always infinity after trying them out ( I know me and my mother in law having monthlys at the same time...spooky). Tired with discomfort of my unusual pads I thought there is no harm in trying them... It couldn't get any worse. I got my Tommy to drive me to the nearest supermarket so I could collect myself a pack of these comfy pads like a child I couldn't wait to get home and line my undies with this new improved product.  This is the moment I realised I've grown up I used rush home to play with my newest toy/gadget eat my favourite sweets or try my new lipgloss now I can't wait to get home to try knicker pads... 

However may I say it was worth it! The advert for these bad boys and my mother  in laws opinion rings true. They are the most amazing pads I have ever tried! They are so comfortable, you don't know you have one on. I infact almost forgot what unpleasantries was going on downstairs. This is also the first time I can say these pads are well worth the retail price. They are worth every penny. A lot of people wear tampons because they don't like the messy "nappy" feeling of pads, but with these you get none of that I can guarantee that this will put maybe half or more of tampon users back on the side of pads.. Well it would me if i ever wore tampons. My sister and Katie even tried these out following my recommendations and loved them! 

All I have left to say is why put up with an uncomfortable week each month? You no longer have to so don't let yourself. Get yourself down to any supermarket boots or superdrug and purchase these perfect pads and have a pleasant call from Mother Nature ... For once:) 

Lots Of Love 

Beth...xxx