Take me back five years you would never have thought I would become a mum let a lone a mum of two! I was the ditsiest rebellious person you could have met. I'm not going to lie I was selfish, and I was failing at aspects of my life, from what I wanted to do career wise and relationship wise. You see I would ALWAYS pick the wrong ones! So you would not expect me out of all people to become a mum.
In early to mid 2011 I found out I was pregnant and facing single parent hood. It was a shock. A good one. I was plagued full of emotions scared, excited , loving. Eventually the 6th December came and my beautiful daughter Ava was born. It was the happiest day. I held her in my arms. I looked at her, and I promised her that although she didn't have a dad I was going to do both jobs. I was going to be there for her love her care for and always do the best I could. I found my calling in life and that was to be a mum. for two years I was a single mum, working out and managing my money to give her the best I could and looking after her on my own. I enjoyed it being a mum was everything.
When I met Tom I had no idea what he would make of Ava and what she would make of him, but they hit it off like a house on fire and as our relationship blossomed so did theirs. I was no longer single I now have a life partner bit more importantly Ava now has what she never did.. A dad. You see Biologically Toms not her father but he is her dad. Being her dads not blood it's about being there for her picking her up when she's down cuddling her when she cries and nursing her knees when she falls over.... He is all she knows and who she calls dad. Our life couldn't get any better could it?? That's what I thought but then I found out I was pregnant again. We were so happy and for me I wasn't scared this time because I wasn't going to be a single mummy I was going to be a mummy as part of a partnership. You think when your pregnant with your second what if it's different this time what if it's not the same.
On the 19th December 2014 Bella was born and no it was no different! I had the same emotions as I did the first time the same thoughts this was equally the best day of my life. I held her tiny body in my arms held her tiny hand and I wanted to burst out in tears I was so proud she is perfect just like Ava and I also promise her what I did Ava except this time I didn't have to promise to be daddy Aswell.
When I look at both my girls my eyes fill up, I want to cry, I made these two and they are the two most perfect little princess in the world I'm so proud to have them both.
Us mums we are busy, our lives are hectic, we don't stop from the minute we open our eyes to the minuet we close them. We spend our days tired, our hairs a mess we have sick on our shoulders, we have washing coming out of our ear holes, CBeebies on 24/7, we are forever cleaning up spilt juice spilt milk crumbs and food trod into the carpet, we wipe bums and go through tears and tantrums , cleaning cuts and grazes, making bottles and dinners, ironing clothes making beds, we are up half the night wiping away tears and fighting off nightmares. Through all this we never moan and we won't, we don't do all this because we have too we do it because we WANT to .. Because we are the mother of our children this is our job and our honour, we do it because our children are the most important thing to us and all this is part of that promise we make the day you are born that promise to love and look after you and protect you till the day we die.
Happy Mothers Day to all you mothers out there you are doing a great job.
Lots Of Love
Beth...xxx
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