Chronic Illness//Stuff People Don't Tell You

I never realised how much a chronic illness changes your life in so many ways. Those small things I do now that I never was told about by my doctors. The simple tasks that no longer are simple.

 

On Sunday, it made me realise how big of a impact my two chronic illnesses have made to my life. It was Mothers Day and my family and I went for Breakfast at Havester. For example.. I got up extra early to take my medication so I was feeling okay during meal, I had to double check I packed all my medication in my hangbag, I spents day before looking at the menu to see what I can/can't eat, I had to sit on end of table Incase I need the toilet to be sick or if my colitis plays up, I had to make sure I had a pint of water so I could take my medication. It's sounds so stupid but if i forgot anyone of them above then I would of been in trouble. After the meal we went shopping and I was debating if to go or not because for the past few days prior to this day I have been having bad bad flare up down to my Colitis so I was worried Incase a flare up happened. 

On Tuesday, I went into High Wycombe for lunch and shopping and once again I had to prepare for the day. I now no longer love going shopping and for lunch because my Back hurts so much that I need to sit down regular, I feel abit dizzy and weird after my medication and that feeling ain't nice when you're in the shops. 

Simple days out are no longer just simple and that what I think I have that found quite hard. Next weekend I'm off to Essex for a few days and I've been worrying so much for the past month which I never would of done before. I have got to my sure I order in my medication so that I have enough for the time in in Essex. This stuff is never spoken about and the doctors never tell you any of the reality of a chronic illness.  

To be honest I'm struggling with stuff like this right now and because I've done a lot days out lately it's made it all seem more harder. Also having anxiety is making it twice as bad and I know I will get used to it in time to come but a year on I still feel like this!! Does anyone else feel like this? I have almost forgotten what it's like to just get up and go out without worrying or having to do stuff. I set reminders on my phone when to book doctors, when to order my medication, when to collect my medication, making sure I've taken my daily meds, making sure I have pints of water to take my meds throughout the night... Ahhhh I can't remember my life before all of this started tbh. You just get so used to it. Chronic Illness you suck!!

Love Katie xx