Goodbye February Hello March

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It's very scary that is is nearly March soon!! I feel like the more older I am getting the quicker the years go by. I don't know if I am looking forward to March or not but I defo know Im glad to see the back on February. Last week I got some news regarding my health that its another big shock and will change everything, I got diagnosed with Colitis which is inflammation of the inner lining of the colon which is the reason to all of my trouble I have been having for a long time. My surgeon has put me on Medication which I haven't started yet and is also seeing me in 4 weeks to discuss my treatment plan in more detail. When he told me I wasn't taking it all in to be honest as I really wasn't expecting him to tell me anything so it was a big shock but really glad after many tests and two operations that I now know what is causing my pain. So I know March is going to be full of hospital appointments and treatment planning and a complete diet change. 

I do have one good thing to look forward to in March actually and that is Beth's Sister Hen do in on the 27th March so I am going down to Essex on 26th March for a few days which Im excited and also nervous about. It will be the first time in along time that Im going out with a large group of females that includes alcohol and a busy place. Last time a few years ago I had a massive panic attack in a Club which totally put me off going for along time but I have Beth with me now so that makes me feel abit better as she knows what to do and say to calm me down. Excited and nervous together is such a weird feeling because I almost feel guilty for wanting to enjoy myself but every now and then I remind myself its possible I might have a panic attack and then I feel so weird and blahh!! I have yet to find an outfit to wear and because I haven't been out like that in ages I haven't even got anything in my wardrobe that I can wear as its either too small (my boobs have grown since I last wore dressy outfits) or the dresses I do have are very winter and causal style so I need to go out and find something. 

That is all that is planned for March at the moment, I also want to get my Insomnia under control as its got to the point now where my body is getting used to surviving on 3/5 hours sleep which makes me a emotional wreck for the day. Also I want to get back into a routine with the blog, I find if I have days where I need to do certain post that I actually do it if that makes sense but if I don't have anything in mind then I just won't even bother. Blogging for me is a sense of therapy is that makes sense kind of sense, it is like an online diary and notebook where I can share all my feelings and be myself on and it makes me happy knowing people are reading my post so I need to motivate myself in March. 

Fingers crossed March is a good month for everyone and also am excited for the weather to get abit warmer :) 

Love Katie x